"50 Bad Artworks" (Risograph Prints now available at Simone DeSousa Editions)
It took three times as much time as I anticipated, but I finished '50 Bad Artworks' with the bulk of the work being completed with a Risograph machine in Mexico City at Crater Invertido.I don't mean ''bad'' as in low-brow or in trying to make something distasteful, but due to a lifetime of ''fake it until you make it'', my art practice was shrouded in shame and impossibly high expectations; so I needed permission to be curious anew.
The automatic re-framing, calling whatever happened ''Bad'' worked like MAGIC and I was having fun again.
All of the imagery I used were from cellphone shots I took of my recent 'Bad Artwork' sculptures, most of them being heavy plaster wall pieces, and a few photographs I took of found sculptures in my neighborhood.
The hammer head is an exception; that was a scrap piece of 2x4 (wood) that I cut into shape with a table saw and painted bronze.
Sculptural artworks that were unpolished, embarrassingly fragile, meaningless doodles took on a new life in the spontaneous Risograph process as they were run and re-run, two colors at a time, into unexpected, improvised, abstract collages.This is a detail of one of the prints where each proof actually has 4 images per page; two on the front and two on the back due to being run through the Risograph machine 2 - 8 times during the process of registering the colors.
These are a selection of 4 prints which in total feature 8 separate individual sculptures or installations. In the process of creating 13 total print editions (featuring 26 individual images of sculptures etc.) In this particular print, I took the words of a therapist and created a self-portrait with the text ''I need you to understand how I feel, and you can't feel it, and I can't give up needing you to know how I feel.'' which although is a succinct way to describe a core wound it also makes me cringe thinking about the directness of the vulnerability.That's what I mean by 'Bad'Art.
Art always seems to find a way to make me feel better even when I put impossible expectations on it.