Impromptu Performance Lecture Partial transcript from 1/19/2019 at UCLA:
during a drop-in at Processing Community Day (LA)
"I have an idea I'd like to present that maybe dovetails with this conference. I'd call it the first annual ADHD conference for artists. ADHD is actually a misnomer, so this Dr. Russell Barkley has given us two much better terms: Time-blindness and Intention Deficit Disorder.
About 4 - 5% of the adult population has Time-Blindness and I am looking at a subsection of that have gone into the arts. I've already begun some preliminary research into artists with Intention-Deficit Disorder. When I took a poll of people to see if they can see signs of ADHD in their work, or if it contributes to their creative work in any way, the responses went against assumptions I had that people went into art because it was more forgiving and it could be more on one's own terms. Often, the overwhelming self-management tasks overshadowed other beliefs such as the necessity for hyperfocus, or being an empath. Dr.Barkley says that those who do good work, do it despite having Intention-Deficit Disorder, not because of it, and YouTube channels such as ''How to ADHD'' devote a good amount of time to note aspects that seem like special powers, quirks worth appreciating, and both can be right.
This focus on how those with Time Blindness experience intense extremes, feelings of all-or-nothing and the reality of stopping altogether in the face of adversity, parallels economic extremes that we are seeing in wealth inequality in America and in the world. This is not a metaphor, but rather the activities that artists with ADHD take on, where often lives are made up of clever strategies for survival, they are a barometer for economic systems with particular demands of flexibility or failure placed on people not on situations.
Amongst the few respondents that have worked for years on being as self-aware as possible, they lamented the lack of research and useful resources for adults with Intention-Deficit Disorder, and that they have had to figure everything out on their own in a complex story of failure, devastation, and self-moderation. I often work with other artists and pride myself on bringing them into a fold of a different way of thinking and working, helping others see the possibility of what I imagine work to be, and how work can be redefined to address salient local and cultural topics.
There are two questions that I would like to present with this ADHD conference, which are controversial and personal: What is the relationship to ADHD and being an artist (using my own practice as a starting point?) And could ADHD symptoms illuminate and even confront Capitalism, where those with the disorder who fail to meet its demands find solidarity?"
Full talk without C.A.R.T. has been found here.